Sunday, January 6, 2019

Sermon: When light shines on us (1.6.19)


Epiphany C (first sermon at St. Paul’s)
January 6, 2019
Isaiah 60:1-6
Matt. 2:1-12

INTRODUCTION
         On a festival day like Epiphany, which has some very clear themes, it is easier than on some other Sundays to see how our three readings and the Psalm are all connected. I assume you’re all fairly familiar with the story of the three kings, so you’ll likely notice that Isaiah will mention camels and kings and two of the three gifts brought by the magi. The Psalm mentions how “kings will bow down before him.” And Paul’s letter to the Ephesians will talk about how the mystery of God is made known to the Gentiles, the nations, the non-Jews – which of course, the magi were. That’s remarkable, because when these gentiles, the magi, come to see God-made-flesh in Jesus, in that encounter, we see that God’s promises are made known even to those outside of God’s chosen, the Jewish people. It shows us something important about who God is, who Jesus is: namely, that Jesus is for the whole world! That’s good stuff! So, as you listen to these texts, notice all the connections, all the ways God has been making promises throughout time, and how they are fulfilled in Jesus Christ. Let’s listen.
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Grace to you and peace from God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
I love Epiphany. The star, the mysterious visitors from the nondescript “east,” the gifts no expectant parents would register for, the dreams, even the name of the day, “epiphany,” the big “A-HA!” at which the truth that God would go so far as to become one of us is made known even to strangers who previously knew nothing of this God… I love all of it. But maybe what I love the most about Epiphany is that it is a totally Christian celebration, untainted by any Hallmark or cultural interpretation. It is wholly a celebration of God made manifest to us through Christ, of the light that he has brought into the world, and it is a day that urges us to continue looking for the light of Christ, even in the darkness of this world.
That all sounds lovely, right? Darkness, both literal and metaphorical, is scary, and shining a light makes it better. Even my thee-year-old knows that! Grace, who, like most little girls, loves the movie Frozen, just received a nightlight with her beloved Elsa and Ana on it. It gives off a nice, soft blue light. Even at 3 years old, she knows that this light makes her dark bedroom less scary. Our first night home from vacation, she was whimpering in her room and when I went to check on her, she said, “I’m a little bit scared. There are monsters coming.” I turned on her new nightlight for her, and all was well. Now, she knows to go turn on that light each night so that she won’t be scared. Light does indeed scatter darkness, and the promise of this season is that while our little Frozen nightlight will eventually break or the bulb will burn out, the light of Christ will never burn out, and the darkness of the world will never overcome it.
Yes, it sounds great. Arise and shine, people, for your light has come! The glory of God has dawned upon you! It is certainly a promise that brings me hope and comfort!
And yet… as I have been reflecting on this image this week, I can’t shake that there is also some discomfort in this promise. Because when light is shining upon us, we can no longer hide. The darkness hides a multitude of sins, but in the light of Christ, we cannot pretend that our sins do not exist. In the light, we see that our words did really hurt someone we love, that we have been negligent in serving the poorest and weakest among us, that we have judged people, for good or bad, based on what they look like, that we have been focused more on satisfying ourselves than serving others. Our excuses that worked so well in the darkness suddenly sound hollow in the light. If we would rather not face the reality of our brokenness, perhaps we would be better off in the darkness after all.
I wonder if that’s what unnerved Herod so much. Herod, of course had a long track record of horrific sins, actions which I’m sure he justified as being the work of a good, strong leader. When the wise men come to him and ask if he knows about this child king, Herod immediately recognizes that a new king of the Jews would pose a threat to him, to his power, to his illusion that he is in charge of his life and his world. The light already emanating from that child king has revealed to him the truth: that he is not as powerful as he thought he was. And his response to this realization… is fear. It is not repentance, nor self-reflection, nor humility, nor a vow to trust in God’s fulfilling of promises. It is certainly not to arise and shine, as Isaiah urges us to do. Indeed, Herod’s response is the opposite of all that. Anyone remember what happens after this charming story about the wise men? After the magi are warned in a dream not to return to Herod and go home by a different road, Herod goes completely off the rails, going on one of the murderous rampages he was so known for, ordering the death of all boys under the age of two, known today as the Slaughter of the Innocents. Merry Christmas, huh? This is what happens when people realize the implications of having the light of Christ in the world, showing us the brokenness. When people are confronted with their own darkness, with their sin and fear and insecurity, they can lash out violently.
We’ve seen this sort of reaction from world leaders throughout time – not all as gruesomely as King Herod, though some, yes. And unfortunately, when someone with a lot of power lashes out, it has the potential to hurt a lot of people, often those who were already vulnerable. But of course, it is not only those with political power who react to a threat to their self-image by harming someone else. I’m sure every one of us here has at some point experienced having their insecurities painfully revealed – maybe a bad review at work, or being a victim of bullying, or failing at something you thought you could do – and if you’re anything like me, you might have reacted to that situation in a way that ended up hurting someone else, even someone you care about. We have all felt like Herod at some point and we all act out Herod’s rage in our own ways. We do it by being passive aggressive with our spouse, or participating in gossip about our friends, or yelling at our kids when we know that they really don’t know better, or at least that they have their own stuff going on and were doing the best they could and didn’t deserve a tongue lashing. We do it by undermining whomever we see as our competition.
Suddenly this light that has come into the world is like those awful florescent lights in the dressing room – you know the ones? – and we are looking at ourselves in the mirror and thinking, “Oh dear… Is that really how I look?”
But you see, there is grace and hope even in that realization! That light shining upon us helps us to see our sin – so that it, too, can be scattered, just like the light of Christ scatters the darkness of the world. The light of Christ scatters our own darkness, our own sin. And even though we sometimes engage in less than Christ-like behaviors, God’s light and promise do not cease to shine. In Herod’s rage at recognizing his own insufficiency, he tries to snuff out that light, but Mary and Joseph and Jesus get out of Bethlehem safely and find refuge in Egypt. Herod cannot put out the light. The light shines on. It shines still, even on us.
It’s good news! But the day of Epiphany, you see, asks us to go even one step further. Epiphany asks us, “So what?” God became truly human and dwelt among us and shone light into the darkness of the world… Great! So what? Now what we are gonna do about it? Are you gonna just soak up that light, count your own blessings, and call it a day? Or is there more to it than that?
We find the answer to that in Isaiah, this refrain we have many times repeated: Arise! Shine! For your light has come! And the glory of the Lord has dawned upon you. (3x) There’s a reason we have repeated it so many times throughout this service – that refrain needs to be in our bones. Arise, Church! Shine into the world! Don’t just sit there, basking in the love and grace of God. Do something!
This is the call to the church. This is the faithful response to Christ’s good news. Arise, lift up your eyes, look around and find the dark corners of the world, and shine that same light into those corners. Do you think this is good news that God wants to spend time with the likes of us? (I do!) Do you find life in the fact that, even though we sometimes let loose our rage in different ways from Herod, they are still in ways that are hurtful even to people we love – do you find life in knowing that even still, God showers us with grace and forgives us and loves us anyway? (I do!) Do you find hope in knowing that God is not yet done with forming us into faithful disciples, but rather, keeps shining that light on us to reveal to us how we can better know and love God and one another? Does that all sound like good news to you? (It does to me!)
Then shine, people of God. Epiphany is a day not for Hallmark, but for the Church, for it tells us all about what it means not only to receive God’s gracious light, but also to share it with others who still long to see more clearly. Arise, shine, for your light has come and the glory of the Lord has dawned upon you. Shine that same light into the world. Tell people where you find hope. Tell them where you find life. Tell them how good it feels to be loved by a gracious God.
Let us pray… O Morning Star, you are the light that does not quit. Shine in our lives, so that we would see your intention for us, and so that we would be equipped then to shine your life-giving light into the darkness of this world. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Two years of Laughter

(I'm posting this almost a month late! Most of it is still true though.)


December 12, 2018

Dear Isaac,


You are two! And a cuter two-year-old boy never walked the earth. You are everything a two-year-old boy should be and so much more. You are loving, kind, thoughtful, funny, cuddly, emotional, sensitive, helpful, generous, strong-willed, creative, sweet, and so, so smart. Every day I am in awe of you!

Let’s start with smart. Well before you were two, you were speaking multiple-word sentences – I even heard you speak a seven-word sentence! (Of course it was, “I don’t want to take a nap.”) You are singing songs, you have a huge vocabulary, you love puzzles and figuring things out. You parrot everything we say until you can figure out how to use it yourself, which is exactly what you should be doing. I am amazed how well you communicate your needs, and while I suppose not everyone would understand what you are saying, Daddy and I understand most of it, and Grace understands almost everything. You are one bright buddy!

Dinosaur - rawr! 
You are kind, thoughtful, generous and helpful. If you hear that someone has a need or desire, you will do what you can to fulfill it. If we’re getting ready for bed, and Grace expresses a desire for a certain toy, you will toddle yourself downstairs without being asked, and retrieve her toy for her. You share your food (one of your favorite games is feeding mommy and daddy). When I ask you to help me clean up, you will crawl under furniture and seek out whatever possible toy may have been missed to make sure it gets put away. You always aim to please!

You are sensitive. You, my dear son, remind me every day of what it is like to be an emotional being, because you feel things so deeply. You have a strong sense of just and unjust, and let us know when something is unjust! Some people might call this the “terrible twos,” and I admit it can be a challenge, because there is simply no reasoning with you. You just need to feel what you feel, like we all do. Best way to deal with those moments, we have found, is to let you do just that: feel. And we check in with you periodically and let you know we are there and love you, and you cry until you’re ready to stop crying. It’s difficult right now (for both of us, I assume!), but my son, if you grow up to be the sort of man who feels emotions deeply, and you can learn how to process those emotions in a healthy way, this will be a gift to you and to those who know you. Your dad and I will do everything we can to help you do that. Emotions are beautiful, and so are you!

You are also genuine in your expression of your needs, when you know what those needs are. There
Birthday boy eating peanut butter
is nothing sweeter than your raspy little voice responding, “Yeah,” or “No” to us asking if you need something (“Do you need a new diaper?” “Yeah.”). And when you receive what you need, the sweet smile and gentle glee you exhibit… it melts my heart each time. That, and the fact that you like to be close to us, sometimes getting up and moving to a place where you can be touching one of your parents, leaning in sweetly.

You are funny. We named you “laughter” and you have delivered. Some things that never fail to make you laugh out loud are peek-a-boo (especially with your sister, especially with the shower curtain), pulling off your socks in dramatic fashion while making a funny sound, doing anything that solicits a funny face from a parent, and of course, making farting sounds with your mouth. You actually have an assortment of sounds you like to make in order to bring laughter to those around you. You love to laugh.

Handsome devil on Christmas
You are strong-willed. Child, I can’t tell you how many times you insist, insist, that I put your shoe on the wrong foot. One of the first things you could say clearly was, “Right here.” You know how things should be, and you tell us so! Even so, you are incredibly happy to walk while holding someone’s hand, or even be carried. You let us know your terms, but are, in the end, a love bug, who just deeply wants affection.

Some other fun facts about you, 2-year-old Isaac: You love cars. Like, love cars. Your favorite shirt is brown with a chalk drawing of a Barracuda on it, your favorite PJs have emergency vehicles on them, we have to read you your cars flip book multiple times each night, and you almost always have a matchbox car in hand. (“My car! My car!”) When we share highs and lows at bedtime, you always say your high was, “Played cars at daycare.” You love Peppa Pig, and think it is hilarious. Probably related to that, you love dinosaurs (George Pig loves dinosaurs, too). Ever since you were a dinosaur for Halloween, you love to act like a dinosaur, roaring ferociously at your sister, or anyone who will listen. You like to eat PB&J (pee-dee-jelly), pancakes, yoghurt, and that’s pretty much it. You like to hold hands with mommy, daddy, or sister. Cars is your favorite movie (no surprise there), and your Lightening McQueen matchbox car is your favorite toy. You enjoy cuddling with daddy for nap (which daddy doesn’t complain about at all!). Grace is your best friend.

We think you are a pretty handsome, sweet, and darling two-year-old boy, and we are so glad you are in our lives, Isaac Karl!

                                                                                                            Love,
                                                                                                            Your Mom
Someone got into mommy's lipstick...