Sunday, June 23, 2019

Sermon: This is my story. (June 23, 2019)

Pentecost 2C
(Proper 7)
June 23, 2019
Luke 8:26-39

INTRODUCTION
         Now that we are in the season of Pentecost, we will hear a lot of stories about Jesus’ life and ministry. They are roughly in order, but we will miss some parts, so I will use this time to make sure you are aware of where we are in the story, focusing mostly on the Gospel and letting the other readings enhance those themes for us each week.
         At this point in Luke, Jesus has called the disciples, and done quite a bit of teaching and preaching, and a lot of healing. In his very first public sermon, back in chapter 4, he preached on Isaiah, saying that he was called, among other things, to proclaim release to the captives, sight to the blind, and forgiveness of debt, and he has begun to show everyone what that looks like. All of his work so far has been in the region of Galilee, a largely Jewish area, but now, for the first time, he ventures across the sea into the land of Gentiles. He ends up in the land of the Gerasenes, where Jesus will be approached by a man with a legion of demons. A Roman legion is about 5000 troops – a lot of demons!
         In all of these stories we will hear over the summer and fall, we are tasked with seeing them not just as stories that occurred 2000 years ago, but as stories that still play out today, albeit in more contemporary ways. So, as you listen, consider where you see yourself in the story. With which character do you resonate? Whose plight tugs at your heart strings? And, what word of hope is Jesus offering you in that? Let’s listen.
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Grace to you and peace from God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
         My kids love books. One of my favorite things about reading to especially 3-year-old Grace, is that she always finds herself in the story. Literally! “That’s me,” she says, pointing to one of the characters that has struck her – no matter the color or age of the person – “and that’s Isaac,” she adds, never to leave her best friend and brother behind. We read the story, she with rapt interest, and then she hops up, finds herself a costume, and proceeds to act out the story. She makes the story her own, and in doing so, learns more about people, about adventure, about language, and about empathy.
         It strikes me that this is precisely how we should be reading the Bible: to look at a story and say, “That’s me. That’s my story.” We often talk in Bible studies about how the Bible relates to our lives, but I prefer to think about how this biblical story IS our story. Because I believe this book is full of truth, even though I don’t necessarily believe that everything happened just exactly as it is written here (sometimes a story is sometimes made more true by using literary devices, which sometimes fudge facts). I think the Bible is a record of people telling their own story and experience with God, in a way that allows future generations, like us, to find their own experience in this timeless story, if not in the details, then at least in the themes and emotions and our shared human condition.
         Today’s Gospel story is really bizarre, but also a wonderfully rich story in which to find ourselves, so that is what we are going to do today. There are lots of entry points: maybe you are the fearful observer of when God does a mighty thing and you’re just not quite sure you can believe it. Maybe you are the swineherd, who feels like someone else’s freedom and good fortune has been to your detriment, and resulted in your loss. (Those poor pigs!) But I’d like today for you to think especially about the centerpiece of our story: the man with the legion of demons.
         Picture with me for a moment, what his life must have been. He used to be somebody – someone with a name and a purpose. But all that has been long past gone. Now, his community has defined him only by his ailment, and treated him thusly. He is the man with all the demons, the demons that swirl about his awareness, at times so much in his consciousness that he cannot see anything else around him without looking first through the dastardly lens they provide. He is the man who has longed for years to experience the human connection he used to enjoy, but now there is no more connection – his condition prevents that. And without that connection, his humanity and his dignity have gone, too. He is ostracized, pushed away, shackled on the outskirts of town. He tries to return to the city, seeking that connection he knows will give him back a hint of that humanity and worthiness he used to enjoy, but no one has the time or energy for that. He is pushed away, again and again, until he no longer believes he is worthy anymore of being in a meaningful relationship with another human being. His demons have won. They have beaten his identity out of him, and convinced him that he is not, in fact, worthy of love. Because of all those demons with which he lives, he is not enough. He has come to believe that he belongs in the tombs, that place of death, because he no longer experiences life.
         Anyone ever feel something like that? Like a legion of metaphorical demons surround you and affect how you see yourself and how you see the world? Some of us deal with addictions – to alcohol, our phones, wealth, or the hope of an ideal body. Some of us have been abused, physically, emotionally, or both. Some of us can’t break out of a cycle of deceit, or bitterness, or self-righteousness. Some of us find our skin color, our sexuality, our faith, our gender, to be magnets for hateful words from others. Some of us live daily with depression and anxiety, and arrive at the end of each day exhausted from the mere act of living. Some of us process information differently from most, and so we get labeled as “weird” or worse, and we are dismissed or ignored by our peers. Some of us have children or parents or siblings who refuse to speak to us. Some of us know just what St. Paul meant when he said, “I don’t do the thing I want, but I do the very thing I hate.” Not all of these are demons that need to be sent away – indeed some are a part of the beautiful people God created when he created each of us. But the emotional impact of them can still sometimes keep us from experiencing the abundant life God wants for us. We all have things like this that we carry with us each day. They make us doubt ourselves. They make us doubt we are worthy of love. They fill us with shame, and make us believe we are not enough. 
         Back to the man with the legion of demons. There he is, living in the tombs, when this fellow, Jesus, arrives on the shore. Instinctively he runs out to greet him – not because he wanted Jesus there but in order to reject him, to push Jesus away as he himself had been pushed away by his own community. Perhaps if he could do the same, it might restore a sense of purpose for him. He is naked as he runs – is it because he no longer cares, or because he is so desperate to be close to someone that he has stripped anything that might get in the way? He falls at Jesus’ feet, and Jesus immediately tries to help him, but the demons won’t have it. They talk back to Jesus, taunting him, and begging him to mind his own business. “We’re in control here, Jesus,” they say. “You stay out of it.”
         And then this remarkable moment: Jesus asks his name. It is the most basic form of connection, to ask someone’s name. The man’s heart leaps at the opportunity, but before he can answer, the demons do: “We are Legion.” They have so taken over the man that even his proper name has been swallowed up. Yet their quickness to answer backfires, for once the demons have been named, they can be managed. Jesus swiftly sends them into a nearby herd of pigs, who carry that legion of demons off into the sea to be drown forever.
The man has his life back. He is once again himself, and, sitting at the feet of Jesus, he has found the connection he has craved for so long. And now, Jesus gives him also a purpose: to become the first missionary to this Gentile land, telling everyone about how much Jesus has done for him, proclaiming how his relationship with Jesus has changed his life.  
         I listed earlier some of the metaphorical demons we may deal with today. Maybe some of them you experienced in your past, maybe some currently surround your awareness. Maybe some affect someone you love. As we seek to find ourselves in this story, I wonder, has Jesus shown up on the shore for you? Has Jesus come and found you, living in the tombs or self-doubt and unworthiness? Maybe Jesus came in the form of the counselor you needed just then, or a breakthrough in a difficult conversation with a loved one. Maybe Jesus came in the kind act of a friend of stranger, or a prayer offered on your behalf. Maybe Jesus arrived on your shore in worship, in receiving those words of forgiveness, or that morsel of bread and the words, “given for you.”
Maybe Jesus came and you didn’t know to call it Jesus, but now, in retrospect, you can see that this is exactly who it was, because that was the thing that brought you from death back to life, the thing that gave you hope once again, that helped you name what was plaguing you so that it could be managed, even sent away to a place where it no longer stole from you the abiding truth and knowledge that you are loved, you are worthy of love, and in God’s eyes, you are absolutely enough. Because that is the business of Jesus, after all: to show us and tell us in many and various ways that we are beloved by God, and no matter who we are, what we do, what we experience or live with every day, whatever death or loss or ending we may experience – nothing can ever change how much God loves us, and God will always work to bring us from the place of death, back toward life. This is our story, you see – it is a story of God seeking us out, connecting with us, restoring to us our given name, “child of God,” and granting us life.
There’s one more place to find our story in this story. It’s that bit at the end – where Jesus gives the man a new purpose with his new life: go and declare how much God has done for you. Tell you friends your story, about how our God of life did not or does not leave you hanging out there by the tombs, shackled and disconnected. Tell your story, about how God has brought or is bringing life out of your death, and hope out of your despair. Proclaim to all how Jesus has changed your life, and how much Jesus has done for you.
This story is our story. So let’s go out and live like it!
Let us pray… Life-giving God, we all live with stuff and baggage and challenges that keep us from living a life of joy in your gospel. Help us to seek your presence in our lives, and to be ever aware of the ways you are calling our stuff by its name, and working to send it away so that we might once again have life. Embolden us, then, to tell our story, your story, to those who need to hear it. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Monday, June 17, 2019

Sermon: Conflict management with the Trinity's guidance (June 16, 2019)


Holy Trinity
June 16, 2019
Proverbs 8:1-4, 22-31
Romans 5:1-5
John 16:12-15

INTRODUCTION
         Today, Holy Trinity Sunday, is a difficult one to preach or even talk about, because it is the only Sunday dedicated not to celebrating a particular event in Jesus’ life or the life of the church, but rather, a doctrine. And at that, it is a doctrine that is, by definition, impossible to describe, because as soon as you try to define God, you have limited God to something definable by a merely human mind. So what our texts do today is present to us some of the ways God works. They each (except Proverbs) mention all three persons of the Trinity. And they paint a picture of some small part of who and how God is. As you listen, don’t try to figure out exactly how to explain God, how the Father relates to the Son, relates to the Holy Spirit. Instead, just let the images wash over you, and sit in them, and imagine how these images of a Triune God can feed you and give you life. Let’s listen.
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Grace to you and peace from God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
            We have begun our small group gatherings here at St. Paul’s, and the conversations have been wonderful. I have been touched by people’s willingness and openness to share things that are important to them – to entrust these things to me and to those gathered. And it has been beautiful to see people connect, not only over things we find mutually funny or interesting, but also the discovery that we share similar pain with one another, presently or in the past – and so are also able to love one another in the midst of it.
         Of course, none of us are strangers to pain and suffering. We are all bearing something, sometimes fresh, sometimes long past but still living in our awareness. Many of you know that I am a three-time cancer survivor – diagnosed first in high school, and then twice more in the first 18 months of my first call. One of my favorite prayers someone ever offered to me happened as I was enduring treatments for my third cancer diagnosis. A friend of mine from seminary wrote to me and said, “I’ve been praying for you, and telling God, ‘God, Johanna has enough character already.’”
            It was a reference to today’s wonderful text from Romans. It is such a powerful text; let me just read a part of it for you again: “We boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has
been given to us.” In just a few lines, the Apostle Paul has put meaning to the suffering we all endure – and though I admit it is not always very helpful language in the moment of suffering (like my friend’s prayer, I thought many times during my treatments, “Don’t I have enough character? Give me a break already!”), in hindsight it offers great consolation. Christians and non-Christians alike have used a similar image to get through times of trial: it is the hope and belief that “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,” because we have exercised our emotional muscles and hopefully, as Paul suggests, gained endurance to weather what may come in the future.
         Many of the struggles we face are personal ones – a diagnosis, a death, a life circumstance changed. And these certainly can take a lot out of us. This week, though, I have been thinking especially about the sorts of struggles we face in our various communities. Anyone here ever have an interpersonal conflict, with someone you care about? Yeah, I figured I wasn’t alone in that! Such conflict is all around us – in politics, around major issues like abortion and immigration and guns and racism, and perhaps most difficult of all, in our families and among people we love. Because few things are as heart-wrenching as enduring major conflict with someone you truly love, or have loved, or want to love, especially if it is around an issue or topic that is important to you. So, in light of this, I wanted to look at what our texts today can show us about how faithfully to navigate such conflicts.
            First, we look to the Gospel. Once again, we have a piece of Jesus’ farewell discourse, the speech he gave to his disciples on the night before his death. Here he tells the disciples, “I still have many things to tell you, but you can’t bear them now. When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth.” I find this both frustrating and encouraging. It’s frustrating because it first requires us to admit: we don’t know everything. Jesus names it, straight out, saying we simply can’t bear knowing everything at once. Isn’t that frustrating to admit? I hate not knowing everything. We have a joke in my family of origin, because my dad is such a know-it-all. Whenever someone challenges him on a fact, he looks all smug and says, “Look it up!” And he is usually right. One time, just one time, I want to “look it up” and prove him wrong! I want to know the thing!
But the battle to be right or wrong doesn’t really help in arguments with people we love, does it? If it is always a matter of right and wrong, someone has to end up wrong, and someone else makes them so, and no one likes to be wrong, and no one likes when someone they love makes them feel bad or stupid. Plus, usually the most important arguments don’t have answers that are right and wrong; they are just different. I’m not talking about facts here, I’m talking about what is true for someone, what resonates with your heart. In that sense, one person’s truth might be different from another person’s truth, but that doesn’t mean one has to be right, and one wrong.
            And so a much harder, but more faithful way to approach disagreements is to listen to Jesus’ words, and take to heart the reality that we don’t know everything, and we never will – we cannot ever fully know the experience and feelings of another person. What we can do is put aside our insistence that we are right… and simply listen to one another, with open hearts and minds, and try to hear and understand as much of the other person’s truth as possible. That’s when that second, more encouraging part of Jesus’ statement can enter in: “When the Spirit of truth comes, he will guide you into all the truth.” The Spirit will guide us into truth. But this can’t happen unless we first admit that we need guidance, and then let down our shield and sword and make room for the Spirit to do that important work. It requires humility, and self-awareness, and it may hurt a little, or even a lot, but as Jesus promises, this listening – to each other and to the Spirit – is what makes truth be known, and from there, healing and growth can follow.
            The next place to turn for guidance in this difficult work is our reading from Proverbs. We don’t hear from Proverbs very often in our lectionary, but this text is really quite lovely. Part of the reason I love it is that it describes the Holy Spirit’s role in creation, as God’s sort of assistant creator – but here the Holy Spirit does not possess the masculine identity that characterizes how many of us grew up knowing God. No, here the Spirit is described as “Lady Wisdom.” This is actually a fairly common way to describe the Spirit, as Wisdom, which is, in Hebrew, a feminine image. Here we see God as both male and female, creating both male and female, creating a world that has differences and different ways of understanding, and that very difference is what brings about life. We also see a God who, even in the very act of creating, works together in community. Bringing life is not an act that can be accomplished by one alone; it is a task to be done as a community, working together, delighting and rejoicing in one another’s work. When we are able to work together, we can be one, even in our differences, just as God the Creator is one with Christ and with the Holy Spirit. Genuine community is challenging, but it is also creative, enriching, and productive.
            Finally, we turn once again to where we started, to this text from Romans, because while all of this other stuff is good to work toward, none of it is possible without what Paul expresses here in Romans. Paul begins this chapter saying, “Since we are justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have obtained access to this grace in which we stand.” That’s a lot of dense, churchy words, so let’s break it down: the reason we are able to do all this hard work that is required in a fruitful, productive, loving community, is that we already have the gift and promise of God’s peace. It’s not a gift we have to earn. We have that peace already, not because of something we have said or not said, done or not done, succeeded or failed at, or even what we might still do, but rather, because God is who God is, and God does what God does. God loves us and accepts us despite our various shortcomings (and let’s admit it, there are plenty of those – if there is one thing we all have in common, besides God’s love for us, it is that we all make mistakes, and we are all sinners in need of grace!).
But here’s the really stunning news: because of who God is – one who justifies and loves and embraces even the ungodly, even those who make mistakes – because of who God is, we come to truly know the peace of God, and are empowered and encouraged to turn in love to extend the same grace, mercy, acceptance, and forgiveness to those around us, those with whom we are in community, those with whom we need to work and live each day.
Accepting God’s unconditional love for us can be difficult; extending that love, mercy and forgiveness to others can be even more difficult. But as Paul also tells us, we don’t need to know how just yet – the Spirit, Lady Wisdom, will show us how if we listen to her and leave space in our hearts and between our words and before our reactions for that same Spirit to move and breathe and do her thing to guide us toward the truth. With the help of the holy communion, the Holy Trinity, we, too, can grow in love for one another, becoming a holy community who loves, cares for, listens to, accepts, and embraces one another, even as we continually hold each other accountable to this holy call. May it be so.
Let us pray… Holy Three-in-One, we face divisions in so many facets of our lives, and in our passion for justice and righteousness, we don’t always remember to listen to the pains and experiences of others. Pour your Holy Spirit of truth into our hearts, so that even as we are assured of your peace and love, we are also empowered to hear what is true for our brothers and sisters, and move forward together as a community guided by and basking in the glow of your wisdom and grace. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.