Monday, February 29, 2016

Sermon: On suffering and cleansing (Lent 3C, Feb. 28, 16)

Lent 3C
February 28, 2016
2 Corinthians 10:1-13, Luke 13:1-9

            Since we began in January, there is a steady group of us who are diligently reading our Daily Bible every day, in hopes of making it all the way to the end by December. I have to say, I’m really proud of the folks who are sticking with it, because the Old Testament, which of course is where we started, can be incredibly difficult to digest. The early years of God’s chosen people, the Israelites, is when God has first given them the Law, and is when God is trying to establish them as God’s chosen. As a result, God appears to be quite harsh when laws are broken. Paul refers to a couple of the harsher stories in our reading from 1st Corinthians – the time when people practiced sexual immorality and 23,000 people were struck dead in one day, or the time a bunch of folks were killed by serpents. It’s not easy stuff to take! For a couple weeks there, we talked a lot about punishment, and the question that kept coming up in Bible study was, “Is suffering God’s punishment for our sin?”
Every time that question comes up, I feel uneasy. I don’t want to think about our God of love as a God who punishes. It troubles me on a personal level, but it also troubles me on a larger level, because that theology makes it too easy to blame the victim, to point fingers, to say, “Well that person had it coming. He deserved it.” And as soon as we point the finger at someone else, it becomes easier to let ourselves off the hook. Or maybe, if we look a little more deeply, pointing the finger and blaming the victim makes it easier to ignore our own responsibility in a difficult reality, or even to ignore the question that is really nagging at our hearts: “Will God – or is God already – punishing me for something? Is that why I’m suffering like I am right now?”

            Assuming suffering is punishment for sin seems like such an easy answer to a difficult situation – and complex problems never have easy solutions. And this particular easy answer leads us down a troubling path. Applied to other people’s suffering, it only leads to blame and hate and fear. It gives us all the more reason to hate and disregard the “other,” because we can write them off with, “Well, they just got what was coming to them.” Applied to our own suffering, it leads to self-loathing and hopelessness, to a sense that we are not worth much to God. Either way, the possibility of God punishing us according to the severity of our sins is never a path that leads to life.
            Lucky for us, Jesus puts the kibosh on this theology straight away. The people come to him in today’s gospel reading with a couple of recent calamities of the day: one in which Pilate slaughtered some Galileans while they were presenting their offerings, and one in which a tower, a part of the Temple, crumbled, killing 18 people who were standing below. Horrifying tragedies, which the people are trying to make some sense of. We can relate – how many tragic shootings, for example, have we had in the past year, and each time we scramble to make sense of them, blaming this religion, or that law, or those people. That tendency is just as true in our personal lives, where we and our loved ones are faced with challenging diagnoses, sudden deaths, and losses that turn life on its head, and leave us wondering, “What did I do to deserve this?” It’s no surprise that the people in Jesus’ time are concerned about these tragedies; we have felt the same way!
            But Jesus takes each one of them and says, “You think that was punishment for sin? It wasn’t, I assure you! These people’s sin was no less or greater than anyone else’s.”
At first I am relieved to hear it. But then I am once again troubled: if not that, Jesus, then why? Why this trauma? I expect him to go on and explain – after all, the question of the origin and reason for suffering is the question every major religion tries to answer! What a great opportunity for him to take that question head on! But instead of giving us a reason that will help us sleep at night, Jesus offers us this: “But unless you repent, you will all perish like they did.”
            Come again, Jesus? This is your explanation for suffering? That we’d better buck up if we don’t want to end up like these unfortunate people? I’m not sure I like this theology any better!
            But then Jesus goes on – and in this strange little parable is where we hear a word of grace. A
fig tree has been barren, a waste of the soil it’s planted in. The landowner, being an efficient man, tells the gardener to tear it out. The gardener, though, sees its potential. “Give it another year,” he says. “I’ll tend to it and give it some extra help, and next year, I think, it will be better. If not, then you can cut it down.”
            I admit when I first read this, I wasn’t sure if this was good news or not. My first inclination is to assume we are meant to be the fig trees who are not bearing fruit, and God is the landowner wanting to be rid of us. That would fit with the punishing God so prevalent in the Old Testament, the one Paul refers to in his letter to the Corinthians. To me, even as someone who thrives under a deadline, hearing an ultimatum like, “You’ve got one year to buck up or get out,” does not make me feel loved by God.
            But the beauty of parables is that there is not just one way to interpret them, and often if you just turn it a little and look at it from a different angle, you can get a completely different meaning. So try this: instead of the angry landowner being God, ready to do away with us, perhaps the landowner is all the voices in our head telling us that we deserve the suffering we have been given. God, then, becomes the compassionate gardener, the one who is certain that, if given more time and some TLC, even this worthless, waste-of-soil fig tree (a.k.a. you and I) can be well and bear fruit.
            Suddenly, our hopeless, blame- and fear-inducing theology of sin and punishment becomes a theology of grace and compassion, a life of faith in which there is hope for the hopeless, in which God does care for us and in fact, actively works to bring us back into God’s loving embrace. Now, Jesus’ declaration of the need to repent becomes not a threat, but a way forward, a way out of hopelessness. It is no longer, “Repent or die,” but rather, “Repent, and live! Repent, and find a path to life, a path to God!”
            Repentance is also not an easy answer, of course. For it requires a good hard look at your heart, and seeing what might be growing in there that you hadn’t seen before can be a shock.
Maybe you’ve seen on the news orsocial media that several people have discovered in their children’s sippy cups that inside a part of the lid that is unwashable, there has been mold growing. People are posting pictures of the horrors they found once they cracked open these sippy cups: mold that was making their children constantly sick. As I grimaced at the grossness people didn’t even
know was there, making their vulnerable children sick, it struck me: what if my heart is like that? What if I took a hammer to the lid of my heart, cracked it open, and saw that there was something growing in there, that I wasn’t even aware of, that is making me sick, that contaminates every swallow I try to take in an effort to quench my spiritual thirst? Something that is keeping me from enjoying a life of fullness in the grace of God?
            “Repent, or you will perish,” Jesus says. And now I believe him. Because without taking that good, hard look at our own hearts, and asking Jesus, as we do during Lent, to “create in us clean hearts,” we will go on suffering until we perish, because our hearts – moldy and grimy from all the pain and suffering we have endured – taint and contaminate the way we see life. Repent, Jesus advises, and come out with clean hearts. Repent, and your barrenness will become fruitfulness.
            And the best news of all? Jesus is there, with us and for us. He is that gardener, tending the soil around our roots, nourishing it and making sure it is getting all that it needs to be fruitful. He is the gardener, pleading for another chance for us, speaking up to all those voices that would love to tear us down, and assuring instead that we will, eventually, blossom and bear fruit – assuring us that, with Jesus’ loving touch, there will be new life.

            Let us pray… God our gardener, tend the soil of our hearts. Help us to see what prevents us from growing closer to you. Help us to rid our hearts of that which keeps us from bearing fruit, so that we may continue our walk toward your cross, and toward the new life that you bring to us. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen. 

Monday, February 22, 2016

Sermon: Yes! I shall see the goodness of our God (Feb. 21, 2016)

Lent 2C
Feb. 21, 2016
Psalm 27, Genesis 15:1-12

            “I am sure I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Yes! I shall see the goodness of our God. Hold firm, trust in the Lord!”

            When I sing this I am transported back to the hills of Burgundy, France, to the little village of Taize, where there is an ecumenical monastery. It was founded during World War II as a place to shelter refugees, many of whom were Jewish, and eventually also orphaned children and German prisoners of war. Today it is home to over 100 brothers, Catholic and Protestant, from about 30 different countries. It draws pilgrims from around the world, especially youth; each year, 100,000 young people travel to spend a week or more at Taize, where they participate in sung prayer three times a day, engage in Bible study, work around the camp to keep it running, and learn Taize’s principles of kindness, simplicity, and reconciliation.
Taize: my friend Jenny and I (spring, 2009)
            I have been blessed to travel twice to this beautiful little community, and as I said, those words I began with characterize my time there. “I am sure I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Yes! I shall see the goodness of our God. Hold firm, trust in the Lord!” They are words that come from today’s Psalm. Both times I was there, I was in a time of life where these words brought such consolation to my searching heart, and as I repeatedly sang them (as is the style of Taize worship), it was with earnestness and longing. I sang them because they were already true, and because I wanted to believe them to be true. I was a pilgrim in search of the goodness of the Lord I knew was there, even as I sometimes struggled to see that goodness.
            This is not a new feeling for people of faith, this feeling of both knowing something is true, even as you still long to see it be true in your life. Just look at Abraham in today’s reading from Genesis. We often think of Abraham (or Abram, as he is still called at this point) as the very example of deep trust and faith. And yet here, he has trouble holding onto that trust. God says, “Don’t worry, Abram, I got this! I’ll make good on my promise to give you many descendants. Your waiting will be well worth it in the end, and I’ll protect you in the meantime.” And two times Abraham replies, “Really? What are you going to give me to prove it? Because so far, you totally haven’t delivered on your promises, and I’m beginning to think that my servant is going to have to inherit everything, because I’m old, and I don’t see an heir yet.” In the words of his mouth, we can hear the pleading of his heart: “I want to believe you, God, that you’ll bring about your promises, but I’m having a really hard time with that right now. You gotta give me something, anything to hold onto here.”
            And who of us has not had that prayer before? When we are faced with a difficult situation, or a fearful one, and we cannot make sense of it – we want to believe that God has something good in mind, but in the darkness of the moment, we have a really hard time seeing what that might be. Or we have been the recipient of a number of difficult blows and can barely believe anymore that any of God’s promises are true, that the words we read in scripture hold any water.
            It’s a tension we see in today’s Psalm, too. Psalm 27 begins with utter confidence: “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom, then, shall I fear?” For six verses it goes on in utter confidence… but in verse seven, the tone changes, almost as if it is a completely different Psalm: “Hear my voice when I call. Have mercy on me and answer me.” Suddenly it becomes a Psalm of desperation and pleading, and for the next six verses, it lacks its previous confidence. It is the song of
Taize: Front of sanctuary
a heart longing to see some evidence that God does, in fact, make good on God’s promises.
            Somehow, though, the Psalmist makes his way back in those last two verses to a resolution to believe in those words that, centuries later, became a Taize chant: “This I believe: that I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord, and be strong. Take heart and wait for the Lord!” How does he get from despair back to assurance? How do we?
            I think the key is in verse 8: “My heart speaks your message: ‘Seek my face.’ Your face, O Lord, I will seek.” Last week I asked you to name what is your current wilderness, and what Promised Land you seek. Full disclosure: for me, this is it. It is to seek God’s face, or said another way, to be more intentional and focused on noticing and naming God’s action in my life, to not only see God’s face in my day-to-day life, but to be more intentional about seeking it.
One of the ways I am doing that is a method I shared with some of you at our midweek service this past week, and that is by doing a daily examen. The examen is a spiritual practice describedby St. Ignatius of Loyola, which is a technique of prayerful reflection on the events of the day, in order to detect God’s presence in it. In essence, you begin each day by naming some people and things you want to hold in prayer throughout the day, and at the end of each day, you take time to name and even to write down reflections on these two questions: For what today was I most grateful? For what was I least grateful? Asked another way, when did I give or receive the most love today? When did I give or receive the least love? When did I feel the most alive? When did I feel life draining out of me? When was I joyful? When was I sad? And through all of this the question becomes: And where was God in this? At the end of the week, I look over what I have written down each week and find how God might be speaking to me through that prayerful reflection.
I hope, even as I already believe, that in doing this, I am seeking God’s face. I hope and pray that others who might be participating in this practice feel the same. But I’ll tell you – seeing God’s face is not at first a really lovely experience. Already by doing this, I have become aware of habits and perspectives I need to change, because they are keeping me from living as wholly in God’s love and promises as I could be. And change is never easy, and sometimes it hurts, and sometimes it takes away a safety net or a coping mechanism you’ve come to rely on. And all that can be very painful at first. Spiritual growth is like that.
This week I came across a quote that seemed to speak directly to me on my Lenten pilgrimage. I share it with you because I think it might resonate with you as well. It says: “The Lenten walk is one of release, of letting go of our own plans, of welcoming the death which will be our new life. We never know exactly where the walk to Jerusalem will lead us – even if we’ve walked it many times before. It is always a mystery, a venture into the very heart of God. At first we might make plans of how we’re going to live into the new life, but soon we learn these plans are in vain – and we abandon them. This is not what we were expecting. It never is. There’s a very good
reason we weren’t expecting this – because God’s vision is far more expansive than anything we can imagine.” [The Labyrinth Way,thelabyrinthway.net/darkness-deepens]
God’s vision is far more expansive than anything we can imagine. Expansive like the stars. Expansive like the wilderness. So expansive that it is impossible to see everything we want to see from our meager vantage point. It is so hard to trust when you can’t see the end of God’s plan. Yet Abraham did, and he became the father of a nation that continues to grow. The Psalmist did. And I believe that we, even as we are still in the chaos of our wilderness journey toward the Promised Land, can also trust that that chaos is merely a piece of the grand, expansive vision that God has in mind for us.

Let us pray… I am sure I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Yes! I shall see the goodness of our God. Hold firm, trust in the Lord. (sing 3x) In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.

Monday, February 15, 2016

Sermon: A decision to walk this journey (Feb. 14, 2016)

Lent 1C
February 14, 2016
Luke 4:1-13

Grace to you and peace from God our Father and our Lord Jesus Christ. Amen.
            As I was preparing for our Lenten theme this year on pilgrimage – “Moving Toward the Promised Land” – I arranged to have a conversation with my aunt and uncle. You see, a couple years ago, they walked the Camino de Santiago, one of the oldest and most famous Christian pilgrimage routes. Starting in France, the 450-mile trek is mostly through northern Spain, and ends up at the tomb of St. James. Pilgrims from all walks of life (both Christian and non-) carry their belongings, and either camp or stay in hostels along the route, walking on average about 15 miles a day. The journey takes four to six weeks to complete.
The Camino de Santiago
            My aunt and uncle had many helpful and wise things to say, but there is one thing in particular that stuck with me. They said that once they made the decision to walk the Camino, that was it. They only made the decision once, and each day thereafter – the training, the trip overseas, and the pilgrimage itself – was all just carrying through with that decision.
On the other hand, another friend of mine, who walked the Camino the next year, disagreed. She said no, she had to make that decision every single day of the journey. Every day – and especially every afternoon, when she was so tired from the day’s journey – she said to herself, “I could quit now. I could catch a train to Santiago. But, no. I will decide to walk again tomorrow.” Both approaches worked; everyone got to Santiago.
            Either way, I’m intrigued by approaching a journey by first making a decision – or you could call it, a commitment. Taking a trip for pleasure takes work and can be tiring, but generally it is something fun, something you enjoy doing, and look forward to. Taking a journey, or a pilgrimage, is not always enjoyable. It is hard work – work that is rewarding, in the long run, but often not
Marker along the Camino,
photo credit Jen Zogg
immediately gratifying. It is easy to get distracted or discouraged, to give up before we’ve taken more than the first step. Sometimes the fact that we began the journey with determination, with a decision to complete it, is the only thing keeping us going.
            Is that how Jesus felt when he was being tempted in the wilderness? His 40 days in the wilderness begins right after his baptism, and before any of his public ministry. In a way, they are sort of his boot camp for ministry: a rigorous preparation for what will prove to be a challenging few years in the public eye, that will end on a cross. We see in today’s Gospel that Jesus “passed” all the tests the devil presents him with, but I still have to wonder: did he ever want to quit? Did he ever want to throw in the towel, to catch the next metaphorical train to heaven, but then think, “No, I made a decision to do this thing. God and humanity are counting on me. I’ve got to follow through, even though it is already hard and it is only going to get harder. It will, in the end, be worth the effort.”
            I guess we’ll never know for sure, but looking at how Jesus’ own journey began affirms for us: embarking on an important journey is difficult. Often it starts out difficult and only gets harder. But more often than not, the journey is well worth it in the end.
            All this brings us back to our Lenten theme of pilgrimage. In your bulletin you will find an insert highlighting some of the biblical basis for this theme, which I hope you’ll read. Sufficed to say, pilgrimage is a strong theme during these 40 days before Easter: it is a theme of being tried and tested for a period of time in the proverbial wilderness, even as we move toward something beautiful and life-giving, toward the Promised Land. It is a theme “built-in” to Lent anyway. But we are making it more physical for ourselves this year by urging everyone to get out and walk a mile or two each day, report your miles walked, and hopefully, with our miles combined with St. Martin’s/Bethlehem’s, we will have walked so many miles we will actually make it to Jerusalem, the literal Promised Land, by Easter. There is a map in the narthex that will keep track of miles walked, so we can see how far we have gone, and how far we have left to go. If you can’t physically walk, or the weather doesn’t cooperate (we’re counting on El Nino to provide us with a mild winter, though this weekend it hasn’t delivered!), you can also spend 15 minutes of dedicated Bible study and prayer as one mile “walked.” We want everyone to be able to participate in this larger journey in whatever way is possible for you.
            But a pilgrimage is not just walking for the sake of walking. A pilgrimage is walking with
Camino de Santiago, photo credit to Jen Zogg
intention. It is a way to “pray with your feet,” an opportunity for reflection, an opportunity to grow closer to God in some way. So even as we walk all together as a group, we will also walk our own, individual pilgrimages. The purpose of that journey I cannot name for you – that is between you and God. We will start to think about it this morning, though. As you embark on your pilgrimage, consider what wilderness you find yourself in right now, what separates you from God, and, what the Promised Land would look like to you. On that same insert are a few questions to help you in your consideration, so I urge you to check those out.
You might not decide today what particular Promised Land you seek; this shouldn’t be a rushed decision, but one that is made in the context of prayer and reflection. Maybe you want to live each day more gratefully and less longingly. Maybe you want to deepen your sense of God’s presence in your life. Maybe you find yourself stuck in grief, and want to find joy again. Maybe you long for forgiveness – for yourself or someone else – so you can release that burden. Maybe it is your guilt or your shame about the past that is weighing you down. Whatever your particular pilgrimage is this Lent, I urge you to try to name it for yourself. You don’t need to tell anyone else, or maybe it would help if you did, so you can walk this journey with a spouse or a trusted friend. Sometimes it is nice to talk to someone while you walk.
It might not be an easy or fun journey, I warn you. I doubt Jesus’ was! It takes commitment to follow through, even after God pulls back the veil and reveals to us God’s desire for us, even when we are faced with what lies in the dark corners of our hearts, even when we are tired and not seeing results as quickly as we would like. Pilgrimage is hard, and not always edifying at first. But in the end, it is worth the effort.
When we face the inevitable challenges, then it is essential to remember: even as we walk our own, difficult, personal journey, we also never walk alone. We walk always with Christ, who also makes his journey toward Jerusalem during Lent. And we also walk with one another, in community. One of the things my aunt and uncle showed me from their pilgrimage on the Camino was their shells. Each pilgrim is given a shell to carry with them when they begin the Camino, a reminder that we never walk alone. We are a part of a larger journey – a journey that began with the Israelites and continues with us and will continue with our children’s children.
When you came into worship today, you were given a stone. These stones came out of Lake Ontario, our largest and closest body of water. Pick up your stone now, and hold it in your hand. These stones will serve a few purposes for you during your Lenten journey this year. First of all, they
Iron cross at highest point of Camino.
serve as a reminder that none of us are not walking this way alone. Yet just as we each carry our own unique burdens on this journey, each stone is different from the next. And so, also let your stone represent your particular, unique journey. On the Camino, people will often carry a stone as a symbol of their burdens. At the highest point in the pilgrimage, there is a hill of stones surrounding a cross – a hill formed by many generations of pilgrims leaving their stones, their burdens, at the foot of the cross before they head back down the mountain toward Santiago. We, too, will carry our stones toward the cross, remembering that they come from the water, just as we come to this journey from the waters of our baptism. On Palm Sunday, I will invite you to bring it back, as we also make our final descent, with Jesus, into Holy Week.
And this is truly how we know we journey together: we all are one in the Body of Christ, brought together into Christ’s own death and resurrection in the waters of our baptism. As we embark on our journeys, may we remember and embrace our common identity, and the hope and promise that comes to us through Jesus Christ.
As a closing prayer, I would like to say a prayer over these stones. Each of you please hold your stone as I pray:

Bless now, O God, the journey that all your people make – our individual journeys as well as the one journey we all make toward your cross, and then onward to the empty tomb and the promise of new life. Meet us on the road, and never leave our side, as we seek to release burdens and find joy and promise in you. In the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Amen.


Here's what was on the insert I mention:
A word on our Lenten theme…

Pilgrimage is a strong theme in scripture. The Israelites journey out of Egypt into freedom, only to find themselves in the wilderness outside the Promised Land they seek, for 40 years. This time is a trying one, but eventually they do make it into the Promised Land. Last week we heard the story of the Transfiguration, which ends with Jesus and his disciples walking down the mountain as Jesus “sets his face toward Jerusalem,” and what he knows will be his death, and of course, his resurrection. Today we hear about Jesus’ temptation – once again, in the wilderness, for 40 days. As he comes out of this wilderness, he begins his public ministry among God’s people.
Each pilgrimage leads, finally, to new life, but not without a period of trial. So it is with our own journeys, during Lent and beyond. You are invited to name for yourself your own “wilderness,” as well as what “Promised Land” you seek, and make this the focus of your pilgrimage this Lent. Consider this prayerfully. Know that this journey likely won’t be easy, and may take far longer than 40 days, but also that at the other end of the wilderness, God always delivers on God’s promises: renewal and new life in Christ Jesus.

Here are some questions to help you in deciding what Promised Land you seek during this Lenten pilgrimage:

·      What is your deepest spiritual longing?
·      In what way do you not feel as close to God as you would like?
·      Through what “wilderness” are you currently wandering? What does it look like outside of that wilderness? How do you get there?
·      What is trying in your life right now? Where is God in that trial?
·      Where do you feel lack in your life? What would make you feel full?
·      What temptations do you face? How can God help you overcome them?